No Fear in Love

I have noticed lately how our past experience affects our life. The other day, I asked my girl friend why she didn’t smile in most of her photos. She then admitted to me that she didn’t like taking photos of herself. She paused for a while before telling her story back in high school, when a class picture was taken.

The picture was printed out, and she somehow didn’t looked good. She looked ghostly white and as you can imagine, she got teased about her ghostly look in that picture. Indeed, that experience has pierced through her heart.

When I looked into my life and perhaps others too, I noticed people could have brought past pains without even realising it. It could be a deep cut in our heart, or simply a small slit. It doesn’t matter how bad the pain was, our heart was once broken.

Those pains might be about our phobia, our failures and disappointments, negative thoughts, or something that we simply don’t want to do without any valid reasons. We are just afraid of being hurt again. Our logical mind is telling us madly. It has happened to you before, and it will happen again.

Honestly, I have fear of feeling hurt to some extent. And I hate to say that I didn’t dare to take a simple step, even though it was as simple as flipping my own hand. It only takes courage, isn’t it? But there was something that had been holding me back. It was the invisible past pain that I had never realised.

In my quiet time, He spoke to me:
You might be vulnerable, Annice
But know that I am your God is strong.

After all this verse speaks personally to me:

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18

I want, and I will trust God when fear is striking me. I have learned not to fight my fear alone because he will remind me of my past. But when I trust God, I am consumed with His love and thus there is no room for fear.

~ by annice on June 10, 2009.