This may not be the post you would love to read because it’s not something that will warm your heart. But still I encourage you to read it.
I’m not going to talk about achieving your goals in 2011, releasing your maximum potential, you name it. Trust me, I don’t even like the topic I am about to write. But I just simply challenge you to pray about your calling, to pray that God will use you in any aspects of your life.
Praying to use us is indeed a dangerous prayer. I am not scaring you, but I believe those prayers will eventually bring you to the place God wants you to be. At the end of the day, you wouldn’t regret anything because all’s worth it.
As for me, I know that God is preparing me for a bigger task, and serving His purpose. He is training a willing and faithful heart. Sometimes I wonder how I could say that when everything doesn’t seem right. 2010 goals are not even half achieved. I don’t even have anything to be boast of. I remember on one occasion, I was asked to name the blessings I have received this year. People came with something that you would have wished for. Thinking hard to name the blessing that will wow people, I found none. Eventually I named a few (after all what is good is God’s blessings, isn’t it) and found some courage to say, “It’s blessing in disguise.”
For those who have read my blog post from the beginning of the year, you will get bored if I have to say it again that I am currently waiting on the Lord. Some of you might ask, what are you talking about, Annice? Let me briefly explain that it requires you surrendering all things to God and trusting Him that His plan is the best and it will be revealed at His perfect time.
But I have learned the waiting concept, which I believe it’s not easy. Moses was waiting for 40 years in the desert before he was finally appointed to lead Israelites out of Egypt. Caleb was at 85 years old when he finally conquered Canaan. And he was 40 when he represented the tribe of Judah to spy the promise land! Then, David! He was not even considered as one of the King Saul’s armies even though he was already anointed at that time! (No, no, I am not saying that there will be 40 years waiting period to finally reach your God’s given dream! In olden days, humans lived longer, but we don’t)
So many men and women of faith in the bible that have to wait. What makes me so special that I reject the waiting period? What if God is preparing me for a bigger task in this short life?
I honestly want my problems or my waiting period quickly over. Doubts, disappointment, pain are not the things you want to face every day. But realising that through them, God can be so close to my heart and He shapes your heart beautifully. I think that’s all worth it.
Now about 2011, I haven’t made any goals nor resolutions yet. I will make ones, but honestly, they don’t matter much to me. Next year might not be easy, but who cares. What matters is that I walk deeper with God and stand stronger than before. What matters is that I’m still faithful like Caleb did in the 45 years waiting for God’s deliverance. I pray that I don’t lose hope when every dream seems to fade away. I want to have a stronger faith not merely a positive thinking for a better future. I want to see God and His plans as I have kept my heart clean before Him.
After all Romans 8:18 and Ephesians 3:20 are the promises that I have received to end 2010 and to enter 2011.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us… Ephesians 3:20
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:18