ESC and God Speaks

Just came back from ESC (Excellent Servant Camp), a camp for every people who minister in my church. It’s a 3 day and 2 night camp, but I gotta admit that it has refreshed my mind and recharged my tired soul. I have been so packed with all the busyness lately, e.g. church ministry, work and other personal stuff. I hate to say this, but I might have been burnout in ministry. I know I felt tired spiritually and drained out. However after the camp, I hope I have walked through “this” stage. I hope I am standing on a higher level of faith.

God is the God who speaks.

In my quiet times, in His presence, God sees my deepest heart. Nothing is hidden. He knows my problems, my fear, worries, uncertainty, my ego, pride, everything! No matter what people see me, there is still little doubt that somehow lies in my mind.

During the camp, we are asked to have personal quality time with God. The 9 sessions also prepares my heart to be taught and formed, to be more like Christ. I know it well in my spirit… when I closed my eyes, I could see me as a little girl running toward her big Father. With His arms wide open, the little girl’s Father welcomed her and was ready to cuddle her whenever the little girl asks to.

Father, I am tired. I never ever want to walk this life without You.

God shows me what He has prepared for me. I know it in my spirit that He has big plans for me. Oh yeah, when I say ‘big’, I do mean it is BIG. This confidence has surpassed my every expectation, every thought and dream. There is no coincidence. Every little thing in my life is not a coincidence.

I might be seeing my life as an incomplete puzzle. I grab some pieces that I understand well where they fit into the big picture. But on my other hand, I am still finding the missing puzzle pieces. Some pieces I understand; others I don’t.

‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’ Jeremiah 33:3

You know that puzzle, when it is finished… It forms a beautiful picture. And I will see the connection from one piece to another. Amazing!! God promises to give me answers when I seek Him. God promises me to show the complete puzzle. That verse has been an echo in my heart and a trigger to know my God better.

I face many uncertainties in my life at the moment. After all I have to leave all of them to God’s caring hands and find peace in Him alone.

Amen.

Guidance from the Start

I was somehow afraid and worried about ‘something’. But God told me, “Annice, you asked My guidance before. Trust Me, I’ve been guiding you until this moment.”

That answer eases my heart. I remember I asked God to guide every step I took in this matter. I should have seen it! He heard my prayers. He has been guiding me because I asked Him to. And He wouldn’t stop to guide me because He just loves me so much!!

Why couldn’t I see it? I guess… instead of looking at His promises, I had been looking at the situation that didn’t support me.

My Granted Wish

Yay! Some of you may have known it already, yet I still feel like posting it on my blog.

Mmm.. First of all, I want to say thank you to my Big Daddy up there. He’s always been super great to me. Oops, it sounds like I was on the stage receiving an award. But it’s true, I feel that I have received a big parcel from Him. He’s granted my wish… specifically.

“Lord, I really want to go to Japan one day.” – granted!
“But at least on scholarship, Lord. I’m broke. Limited resources here. Well, unless you drop some money from above. My arms always wide open.” – got it!
“Oh yah, I don’t wanna go to the *ulu part of Japan. A bit scary if it’s too quiet.” – granted, I’m going to Kobe.
“I feel like shopping, Lord. I can’t do so much shopping here 😦 Well, Singapore will do, but I miss the cheap shopping in Hong Kong” – yuhuuu, granted!

Yes! I am going to Japan and Hong Kong this coming holiday. I will be studying Japanese in Kobe, traveling around and going sightseeing there. Wow, I’m really looking forward to this year winter holiday.

Above all, God knows what we want specifically guys. Is that good for me, Lord? Is that what You want for me, Lord? If you find the answer ‘yes’, but you still haven’t received anything yet. Don’t be discouraged! You know it… God knows it, God cares about it and God is working on it. So, never stop believing!

*ulu = inaka, xiangxia, kampoeng, countryside